I WANT IT ALL.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

i'm finally hit slapped smacked whacked clouted by reality.
i've got 4 Fs.
chem maths econs and gp.

it was since sec 3 that i ever got such shitty results. i failed both maths and science then. i know i cant afford to let history repeat itself again! =( BUT sadly. it has repeated. intensive study plans has to be drawn out and hopefully i will make it to J2.

very disappointed. i really studied and studied quite hard but still got 4Fs. dont know how to disclose the news to my family. not as in afraid to be reprimanded but afraid of the awarkard silence i have to face knowing they are super disappointed in me. oh great. i'm such a letdown. i'm feeling super ashamed of myself at the moment.

ok. i must not be disheartened and must continue to work hard. do not give up. i have to tell myself all the shit for this period.

i need time to recuperate and get back on my feet. i am only left with 6 weeks.

9:43 PM